The Ever Changing List of Life Goals...

It takes 3 min is what I was told...


My artistic side is dying to explode...I want to tend to it. I need to further my education in photography and take a class that will allow me to become licensed.

I want to see my kids Happy. Healthy. Successful. To give them all I can and them look back and say mom did an awesome job.

Get a media card at the Olympics.

Have an successful Art Exhibition which has my audience begging for more (ya, that's asking a lot however it's not impossible)

Win the lottery? haha.. the financial lottery would be great however- the lottery of love would be even better.

Gymnastics- build an awesome gymnastics program with a solid team with the same vested interest. Key word... with a team.

Own my own gym...

Build a network of strength, trust, love and accountability within my relationships. I don't focus enough on this and tend to become ever silent in my own little world. I have my reasons but it's time to open up a bit and let myself become slightly vulnerable. Scary as that may be.

 Lima! Bali! Tahiti! Seychelles! Africa!

Compose and perform my own song.

 Dance lessons!!!! With a kick ass partner.

Show the people in life how just incredible they are.

.... and it goes on and on....

.... Breaking heart

Its less than a week away and my two favorite men in this whole giant universe will be here.

It' been too long. And I miss them terribly.

I miss their laughs.
Their smiles.
The list could go on and on...

I miss them so much that it breaks my heart.

Try as I may

I recently had a conversation with a friend about being the driver in my own car. The funny thing about this- if you've ever driven with me... You are the one who ends up driving. I hate driving. I like to sit back and enjoy the view. Watch everything. Talk. Fidget. Play with the heat and music selections. Sleep. Driving for me takes focus and concentration and often my ever busy mind just wants to wonder (Vascilando!). Driving causes me to stay on track and not go off the road.

Right now...I need to start driving. Taking control and making the decision where to go. Without distractions.

I need my passengers to be my  suggestive guide. In a positive manner. To help take my stress away. To give advice and expect me to make informed and rational decisions how I see is best fit. To help me see that rainbow at the end of this storm.

Right now- I need friends. Friends who can keep my confidence. Balanced friends who don't get angry everytime I have an opinion. Friends who listen.

What I dont need is a romantic relationship. My heart is too far damaged to even think about romance and Im far too tired for fights anymore.

As much as I just want to hide under a rock until this storm passes... This storm will not leave until I lead it elsewhere.

There are some MASSIVE DECISIONS  to be made. Decisions that affect everyone and anyone. Decisions that will cause a butterfly effect so huge....

I have my keys...

1....2....3....

Now where the hell is the ignition again?

Tea og Vinnumálastofnun og Rafhlaða Ákæra

.... And the first line is the only thing I can complete.

Feeling.... Overwhelmed but beautifully satisfied as my tea is easing all feelings of panic at the moment.

Tea has run out.
Shit.

It will all work out.... It will all work out... þetta reddast.... Þetta reddast.... Þetta reddast....

Fucking Up is an Art Form

Judging by the title you can guess there has been a few interesting twists and turns.

I have said this before- we, ourselves, are responsible for the directions we take- if we dont like the direction we can simply find another road to get on.

Sometimes- we make decisions in which have poor judgement (aka- you're an idiot moment).

At these times we must deal with the backlash. The consequnces.

No one likes to face adversity (or stupidity) especially when they have a handicap in place or when they are weak. Often finding a shelter on the side of the road to rest and gain some strength is required. I often talk about how fast life is (hence my tape measure title reference) but for a moment sometimes it's best to just..... Pause.

Too often I dont follow my own thoughts.

Pausing... .... ... ... ...