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Thursday, October 13, 2016
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Sunday, July 31, 2016
Invasion of Privacy
You know I really should become a dating detective. I have just come to discover (via IP address detection (complete with screen shots!) and Facebook that an individual close to me has an EX (whom is remarried) who is reading all of their Facebook messages and snooping around their personal life as well as others.....
So is this an Invasion of Privacy ??
By LEGAL DEFINITION...' one who intentionally intrudes, physically or otherwise, upon the seclusion of another or his private affairs or concerns, is subject to liability to the other for invasion of privacy, if the invasion would be highly offensive to a reasonable person."
So-It sure is an invasion of privacy and shows the level of class someone has when they log into their Ex's Facebook in order to gain information for god only knows what reason.
Perhaps someone should contact your spouse to discuss ways in which they should try to reason with you and perhaps they should speak with your spouse about extending more attention towards you because clearly you're not getting enough entertainment in your own life.
Or,perhaps, you should start an Apology because god only knows their are two people who are mighty angry.
Monday, June 13, 2016
This summer
I shall fall asleep under the stars in the back of a pick up, on a mattress, with my sleeping bag, listening to the crickets chirp and the owls hoot. I shall wake up to a sunrise and be reminded life is absolutely magnificent.
Sunday, June 12, 2016
Thanks Sign Guys
I drive past this sign on a daily basis. I aways get excited when I see that the quote has changed. I noticed yesterday that this was the new one...
Wednesday, June 08, 2016
To The Man Who Checked Out On His "Step Child"
I write this in anger and in haste. Part of me feels like I should stop now while I am ahead however we are speaking of a little girl and the long lasting effects one adults choice will have on her.
From the age of 2 my ex had been in Emma's life. When she was 3 she started calling him dad. He was her dad. She knew at a very young age she had a biological dad whom she saw from time to time however- this man whom she called dad- was her dad.
When we separated in 2012- Emma still called this man dad. She still spent time equally with him. Then- we had to move. Not by choice. I had to go where the work was. Emma came with me. The boys stayed with David and visited me. The moment we had to leave the city that both parents shared- he checked out. He stopped calling. He made no plans. He and his girlfriend were pregnant and decided that they were going to go off in the sunset without Emma in their lives.
Right before we returned back into the country in 2015 I asked Emma's "Dad" if she could spend time with him- he wanted to leave it to the courts. Court wasn't until November. Then December. Then January. Then April... Two years went by where her "Dad" cut off all communication and a simple hello and hug was exchanged whenever she saw him at pick up and drop offs with her brothers.
2 years to Date and still- this little girl yearns for her Dad.
This last week- The courts saw her 'Dad' and deemed him just as that. He may not have a drop of biological ties with Emma however- he was her parent and is now considered such and is being held responsible for acting as such. I asked specifically for a parenting agreement. Me. The opposing party. Wanting her 'Dad' to spend time with her. This is usually not the situation in a court room.
The court asked if he wanted time with his little girl.
He never answered.
The Justice asked if he ever loved this little girl.
His response.... 'sure'.
His lack of response sent shock waves through the judge, the security guard and the stenographer. All of us stared at him in hopes of the right answer. All the judge could say was he was shocked and shook his head in disbelief.
After some time-His lawyer stated "Mr.Sykes would NOT like time with Emma"
My tears flooded the desk. The judge let out a disappointed sigh and the security guards mouth dropped.
Now, I have to explain to my little girl why, in her words, 'No one wants to be her Dad'.
I, myself, struggle to understand. I struggle to accept that someone can just hit the eject button after 10 of being in a relationship with a child based on distance. But, it's now not the task at hand. I don't need to understand. I need to look forward.
There is no looking back now. I spend each day loving her as much as possible. I spend each day telling my daughter that she is wanted and that she has people in her life who want and love her....
From the age of 2 my ex had been in Emma's life. When she was 3 she started calling him dad. He was her dad. She knew at a very young age she had a biological dad whom she saw from time to time however- this man whom she called dad- was her dad.
When we separated in 2012- Emma still called this man dad. She still spent time equally with him. Then- we had to move. Not by choice. I had to go where the work was. Emma came with me. The boys stayed with David and visited me. The moment we had to leave the city that both parents shared- he checked out. He stopped calling. He made no plans. He and his girlfriend were pregnant and decided that they were going to go off in the sunset without Emma in their lives.
Right before we returned back into the country in 2015 I asked Emma's "Dad" if she could spend time with him- he wanted to leave it to the courts. Court wasn't until November. Then December. Then January. Then April... Two years went by where her "Dad" cut off all communication and a simple hello and hug was exchanged whenever she saw him at pick up and drop offs with her brothers.
2 years to Date and still- this little girl yearns for her Dad.
This last week- The courts saw her 'Dad' and deemed him just as that. He may not have a drop of biological ties with Emma however- he was her parent and is now considered such and is being held responsible for acting as such. I asked specifically for a parenting agreement. Me. The opposing party. Wanting her 'Dad' to spend time with her. This is usually not the situation in a court room.
The court asked if he wanted time with his little girl.
He never answered.
The Justice asked if he ever loved this little girl.
His response.... 'sure'.
His lack of response sent shock waves through the judge, the security guard and the stenographer. All of us stared at him in hopes of the right answer. All the judge could say was he was shocked and shook his head in disbelief.
After some time-His lawyer stated "Mr.Sykes would NOT like time with Emma"
My tears flooded the desk. The judge let out a disappointed sigh and the security guards mouth dropped.
Now, I have to explain to my little girl why, in her words, 'No one wants to be her Dad'.
I, myself, struggle to understand. I struggle to accept that someone can just hit the eject button after 10 of being in a relationship with a child based on distance. But, it's now not the task at hand. I don't need to understand. I need to look forward.
There is no looking back now. I spend each day loving her as much as possible. I spend each day telling my daughter that she is wanted and that she has people in her life who want and love her....
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Tuesday, May 10, 2016
Words are Just Words
There are so many words that fill our world. Sometime these words resonate and dance between our ears. It's up to us to find the meaning. It's up to ourselves to create understanding and passion behind these words. It's about finding your own meanings, your own voices and convey the message in which we have found that binds the words and emotions together.
Lets illustrate this:
'I LOVE YOU'
These three words.
We disentangle these words and exemplify them based on the emotions that are centered and united to them. We tell our friends we love them. We tell our siblings we love them. When we are in love, we tell the person who influences the sensation of 'love'. We say we love a painting, a song, a place. It is the same phrase. But it is used in different forms.
Words in the end, are just that.
What makes words so powerful however is not just the statements or emotions behind them, but also- the actions.
You can proclaim your love to someone or something but validation is often what confirms and ties the emotions and words together.
Lets illustrate this:
'I LOVE YOU'
These three words.
We disentangle these words and exemplify them based on the emotions that are centered and united to them. We tell our friends we love them. We tell our siblings we love them. When we are in love, we tell the person who influences the sensation of 'love'. We say we love a painting, a song, a place. It is the same phrase. But it is used in different forms.
Words in the end, are just that.
What makes words so powerful however is not just the statements or emotions behind them, but also- the actions.
You can proclaim your love to someone or something but validation is often what confirms and ties the emotions and words together.
Thursday, May 05, 2016
MY Dear Grandmother
She let me lick the spoon from the cookie batter--- shhh... dont tell your mother she would say.
She surpassed the red lights and would say "it was green wasnt it?"
She NEVER TOLD me to clean my room, only pushed my mess back in and shake her head.
She gave me a 10pm curfew and told me I had to pay rent. She taught me to be responsible.
She would tell me when I looked ridiculous and would never hesitate to let me know when my actions were less than favorable.
She smiled at me and told me she only made beautiful children and then in turn- made beautiful grandbabies.
She held my hand and walked me down the aisle when I married.
She held my hand and told me things would be ok when it didnt work out.
She warned me of the cruel world we live in and the stupid decisions we make to make it so cruel.
She told me- The squeaky wheel gets the greese and yet... its sometimes better to stay silent and endure and learn....
She once told me that god owed her 2 babies and he gave them to her.
She had a near death experience and was pissed she had to come back to this life.
She is one of the bravest persons I have known. She is an incredible woman and a I cannot thank my lucky stars for the opportunity this universe has given me to have her in my life.
Yesterday- she was given a time stamp. A ticking clock.
Yesterday- she threw it on the floor and told it to screw off.
Yesterday, My Grandmother was told she has terminal cancer.
Yesterday, she refused to accept that one little mass in her cavity could turn into a death sentence.
Yesterday, she affirmed again why she is Batman undercover.
I love this woman with all my heart.
https://goo.gl/photos/HxquNyxVgH34zt5q6
She surpassed the red lights and would say "it was green wasnt it?"
She NEVER TOLD me to clean my room, only pushed my mess back in and shake her head.
She gave me a 10pm curfew and told me I had to pay rent. She taught me to be responsible.
She would tell me when I looked ridiculous and would never hesitate to let me know when my actions were less than favorable.
She smiled at me and told me she only made beautiful children and then in turn- made beautiful grandbabies.
She held my hand and walked me down the aisle when I married.
She held my hand and told me things would be ok when it didnt work out.
She warned me of the cruel world we live in and the stupid decisions we make to make it so cruel.
She told me- The squeaky wheel gets the greese and yet... its sometimes better to stay silent and endure and learn....
She once told me that god owed her 2 babies and he gave them to her.
She had a near death experience and was pissed she had to come back to this life.
She is one of the bravest persons I have known. She is an incredible woman and a I cannot thank my lucky stars for the opportunity this universe has given me to have her in my life.
Yesterday- she was given a time stamp. A ticking clock.
Yesterday- she threw it on the floor and told it to screw off.
Yesterday, My Grandmother was told she has terminal cancer.
Yesterday, she refused to accept that one little mass in her cavity could turn into a death sentence.
Yesterday, she affirmed again why she is Batman undercover.
I love this woman with all my heart.
https://goo.gl/photos/HxquNyxVgH34zt5q6
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Appropriate Material
Listen to Free freakin fallin by Rebecca Schmal #np on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/rebecca-schmal/free-freakin-fallin
New Bucket List!!!
That time of year is coming again- I am in the middle of compiling a new bucket list...
And truth be told- I look back at my list from last year and realize...I was lazy and didn't focus on achieving some of my goals.
Well... It's almost April and its time to spring forward with this...
So... Here goes
1. Sing live...
2. Crypt lake and a tent
3. Fishing trip with the kids
4. Paint a new piece and hang it up (it's been 2 years since I picked up a brush!)
5. Change my photography businesses name
6. File my taxes..... .... ..... .... ... ...
7. Take grandma to the Quabbin....Shes now 93!!!
8. Iceland. Airwaves. Maybe sing there?
9. Write a song with dad.
10. DIVORCE. FINAL!
11. 11:11... ON 11/11/2016...A BIG ASS WISH
12. Show my kids the power of kindess
13. Andrews Wedding
14. An electric guitar!!!!!!!
Future Endeavors
PERU!!!
Fenway Park and a Game
See the Patriots play at least once
An October picknick,in a field, in new england
Take the kids to Disney.
A train ride from Montana to Seattle
Get remarried to my forever
Walk Emma down the aisle
Show Alexander a real live space suit
Take Dominic to a skate camp
Meet my sister and my dad's family in Holland
See my brothers boat again.
See Fly happy again. Settled. Hear him play piano.
Attend Winston's wedding (he actually bought his future make believe wife a fancy car...but really, he needs a wife!)
And truth be told- I look back at my list from last year and realize...I was lazy and didn't focus on achieving some of my goals.
Well... It's almost April and its time to spring forward with this...
So... Here goes
1. Sing live...
2. Crypt lake and a tent
3. Fishing trip with the kids
5. Change my photography businesses name
6. File my taxes..... .... ..... .... ... ...
7. Take grandma to the Quabbin....Shes now 93!!!
8. Iceland. Airwaves. Maybe sing there?
9. Write a song with dad.
10. DIVORCE. FINAL!
11. 11:11... ON 11/11/2016...A BIG ASS WISH
12. Show my kids the power of kindess
13. Andrews Wedding
14. An electric guitar!!!!!!!
Future Endeavors
PERU!!!
Fenway Park and a Game
See the Patriots play at least once
An October picknick,in a field, in new england
Take the kids to Disney.
A train ride from Montana to Seattle
Get remarried to my forever
Walk Emma down the aisle
Show Alexander a real live space suit
Take Dominic to a skate camp
Meet my sister and my dad's family in Holland
See my brothers boat again.
See Fly happy again. Settled. Hear him play piano.
Attend Winston's wedding (he actually bought his future make believe wife a fancy car...but really, he needs a wife!)
Sunday, March 06, 2016
Lowering
Life becomes scary complicated when you think things are figured out- then shit happens. It becomes more complicated.
Then you seek solutions to this... Life....
Then.... Life happens again....
I've dropped my anchor and now wish for the waves to settle. Fucking please. If only for a moment.
Tuesday, February 09, 2016
I saw it for a second... A glimpse into what if
This taunting possibility now is only a figmant
A chance to see reality, one blink and everything changed
Why is this so hard. Why is there so much pain.
The capital of Happiness.... It's such a silly little thing
How dare I think it could exhist, it was only in a dream.
This taunting possibility now is only a figmant
A chance to see reality, one blink and everything changed
Why is this so hard. Why is there so much pain.
The capital of Happiness.... It's such a silly little thing
How dare I think it could exhist, it was only in a dream.
Saturday, January 16, 2016
Lifes Little Hints
It's apparent the universe is sending me a giant message. The people who seemed to have massive amounts of importance... I am learning that perhaps that is not the case anymore.
I have placed value in people perhaps who of course I shouldn't have as of late. In reality it's important to look at the people in your life and evaluate if they indeed are contributing positive waves in your direction. If not...
THEY ARE WASTING YOUR TIME!!!
I have placed value in people perhaps who of course I shouldn't have as of late. In reality it's important to look at the people in your life and evaluate if they indeed are contributing positive waves in your direction. If not...
THEY ARE WASTING YOUR TIME!!!
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